Hey I wrote this, tell me how you think it is...
She's afraid of what she's going to do. She doesn't want to do it, but then again, she's waited way too damn long. She told herself becase she loved him, she'd wait on him forever..or so she thought.
She wasn't really tired of the waiting, the waiting wasn't really bad. Not knowing what he was going to do next was what really got to her. He does what he wants when he wants it, regardless of her feelings. He never calls. Maybe once or twice a year at that, but that's only when he wants something. But she knows that if she ever needed anyone, he would be there. That's what makes this harder.
She knows what she's going to say and it's replaying over and over in her head. Suddenly, all the words become blurry as the memories of him roll back to her. She's watching him sitting there, smoking one of his signature camels she got him. She watches as his hand moves to his lips, the lips she's kissed so many times before and probably never will again. Regardless of what happens, she will never forget the taste of their first sweet kiss, the kiss that told her she was in love. And then he turns and smiles at her. His smile has always worked on her. If he smiled at her, she would forget anything he done to make her mad. He knew this and used it to his advantage. His smile is what she likes best about him. But this time, the smile doesn't work.
She starts to talk, but he grabs her hand. She's always loved the feel of his hands, the way their rough but his touch is so soft. She tries to tell herself you don't have to do this, it will be okay, everything will work out. But the feeling of no promises overwhelms her as she jerks her hand away from his.
"Don't touch me,"she says in a tone that reflects her self doubt about the words she's going to say to him.
"Okay.." you could tell he didn't understand, "Are you okay?"
"NO I'M NOT OKAY,"she can no longer hold back her tears as they begin to flow down her face. "I haven't been okay since I met you. You've messed me up in ways that I cannont explain. You make me the happiest person in world at times and the most heartbroken at others. You can break my heart and glue it back together with just your smile. You've changed me, AND FOR SOME REASON I STILL LOVE YOU," with each word her voice grew louder from the passion and pain of the words she's speaking. "I've waited three years for you and I would wait a lifetime. But I don't want to love someone that doesn't want to love me back. SO DO SOMETHING TO LET ME KNOW YOU CARE," her emotions, like always, were getting the best of her. He's the only person that can calm her down but he's not about to interrupt her because he's in total shock. He never thought it would come to this, he thought she was happy the way they were. He certaintly was. She started to speak again, "Kiss me".
It's his turn to talk. He was in shock, but he could still hear what she was saying and he knew he had to say something."What?" was all he could think of.
"Kiss ME!" her words grew more harsh because she knew he wouldn't do it.
"Maggie..I-" she cut him off. She was tired of hearing his lame excuses. It was time that he heard what she was feeling.
"I don't want to hear you can't, my heart can't take it." It was true, her heart probably couldn't take much more. He had shattered her heart so many times that she was still picking up the pieces. But this time, she wasn't going to let him glue it back together. "In 10 seconds, I'm walking out the door, and unless you tell me how you really feel, I'm never looking back." She sat there silently, counting the seconds in her head. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6 she watched him light another cigarette. She wanted to be in his arms, she wanted him to hold her, but more than that, she wanted to taste his kiss one more time. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. He still hadn't said anything.
The longest 10 seconds of her life had just went by. She turned to the door that she had walked through so many times before. She shut the door and turned back around to silently tell him goodbye. Her heart wouldn't have to worry anymore. It had been broken for the last time.
She heard the door creek open and stood there watching. She watched him stand there silently, not making any notion to move. So she turned back around to face the emptiness around her.
"I'm sorry," he finally spoke.
"I don't want you to be sorry. I understand," the tears she just had dried we're coming back. This was it she thought, it's goodbye.
"So you understand why I'm 30 seconds late?" He began to smile that same smile that had broken her heart so many times, as he leaned down to kiss her lips...
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